goneforawalk: (don't you know every little thing)
alucard. ([personal profile] goneforawalk) wrote2019-01-18 05:49 pm

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originallutece: or just impassive, who can say! (neutral; u n i m p r e s s e d)

[personal profile] originallutece 2019-02-27 07:20 am (UTC)(link)
[She won't ask him anything too personal, out of respect for him. That's a rare thing. Rarer than he might suspect; there's only one person in her life who gets that respect, and she loves him with all her heart. Alucard gets it both because he's her teacher and her sire; she won't be so foolish as to be nasty to him.]

Were you ever once afraid? Either of-- of reaction, or what might happen from some enthusiastic hunter or self-loathing vampire?
originallutece: a lot. a lot of mistakes. numerous ones. there's literally a quantifiable list. (neutral; i've made some mistakes)

[personal profile] originallutece 2019-02-27 07:29 am (UTC)(link)
[It helps, hearing that. It doesn't make her any less resentful of her own fear, but it at least assures her she isn't a fool for feeling such things. If he feels it, even so recently, surely she isn't completely hopeless.]

Tell me what it was like when you were young.

[Soft. An entreaty, not a haughty demand, because for the first time in a very long time, she's so very much out of her depth.]
originallutece: NOBODY'S FLUSTERED STOP TALKING (talk; i'm not flustered you're flustered)

[personal profile] originallutece 2019-02-27 07:41 am (UTC)(link)
[She nods. She feels that fear, god knows. What if someone kills me before I find Robert, it's all but the same thing.]

And now? Are you afraid at all that you might be killed by some over-zealous, self-loathing vampire?
originallutece: the secret is to wake up (sad; the secret isn't to dream)

[personal profile] originallutece 2019-02-27 07:50 am (UTC)(link)
[She nods faintly, her eyes darting down for just a few seconds.]

I was Schrodinger's cat before all this. I was dead and alive, eternally, perpetually. That's what Robert is. There's no way to hurt him, tame him-- tame us or so I thought.

[A few seconds pass, and she hesitates visibly-- and then, uncertain, shifts over just slightly, closer to him.]

It's terrifying. I thought . . . I thought being this would be a guarantee, but instead, here I am, minding my manners more than I ever did as a human, terrified some self-righteous prick will try and stake me. I hate--

[She cuts herself off.]

I despise it.
originallutece: don't tell anyone but i'm kinda into this whole cyndi lauper business (talk; shit that's mildly catchy)

[personal profile] originallutece 2019-02-27 07:59 am (UTC)(link)
[She shrugs. Truthfully, she has no idea if she can be returned to that state. It's part of why she was so desperate to become a vampire: because she doesn't know, and she wants some kind of guarantee. But the rest of it . . . she nods. What he says isn't precisely comforting, but it is honest, and she appreciates that over a comforting lie.]

Speaking of which . . . I'd, ah, I'd like to practice with you more. I'm still nervous to try sleeping with anyone beyond a vampire or a werewolf, lest I harm them.
originallutece: an alcoholic father is waiting for meeee (neutral; somewheeere beyond the sea)

[personal profile] originallutece 2019-02-27 08:10 pm (UTC)(link)
At least one. Actually, I discovered that when I was still human; he wasn't very good at hiding what he was. Large. Snappish. Not mean, necessarily, if not a little caught up in himself.

I haven't seen him transformed. He's large as a man; I can't imagine how enormous he'll be as a wolf.

[She says all this just a little too quickly, a tense sort of report. It's easier to talk about Derek than about his loss, about her fear.]