I recognise that. It doesn't make it any easier, particularly as I'm not sure the Church, nor God would agree. I killed Maxwell for my faith, and letting these beings live, after that sacrifice - there's an incredible amount of instinctive hostility I have to overcome every time I encounter something that would be considered an affront to God.

I don't suppose there's much I can do about it, except hope it'll get easier as time progresses. But until then, I wouldn't expect things to go as smoothly as you would like.

[There's some degree of trust in telling Alucard all of this. After the debacle in his room, it comes just a little easier.]