[He doesn't want Alucard to be sad. There's no satisfaction in it. This isn't the sort of suffering he can revel in, and coming from Alucard, someone he's perhaps too close to, and understands perhaps too well, it's especially unpleasant.]

Don't we just. But we have plenty of time here, and you have people willing to listen. You'll recognise eventually that they want to listen to you. It won't be 'dumping' or 'unpalatable' from their perspective.

[Having finished his food, he places his plate on the coffee table, folding his hands in his lap.]

I doubt it's pleasant talking to me, specifically, about this, but frankly, most of the other advice you received was awful.