[ it is affection, sure, but he always wants more, craves more: everything is never enough, for alucard, who endured so long without any affection at all. it's left him starved, and once someone grants it to him, he doesn't exactly understand why it would be recinded unless he did something wrong.

he rolls his eyes and doesn't answer at first, briefly dunking himself under the water to rinse his hair. sure, it makes him tired again, but it's a necessary evil. ]

I'm not helpless. Look, it just makes me uncomfortable. Being human. I don't deserve humanity, and I don't like it being forced on me, either, even if it's temporary during a fight.

[ ooh, now he's grumpy again. his eyes narrow, but then he just says, childishly: ]

I don't need to go to the gym. That's ridiculous.